I have been thinking for a while about the emotion jealousy. It is an emotion that for me has always raised questions and a sort of morbid/sadistic (delete depending on which is correct) intrest. Jealousy is a strange thing, it changes the normally sain and trustworthy people in to raging paranoid monsters. What is it about human nature that makes this emotion so powerful? Let me explain how I think it works...
The key to any form of relationship platonic or not is trust and no matter how strong the bond of trust in any relationship jealousy can still rear his wicked little head. A classic example that the majority of people, if not all of you can probably relate to would be that of my years in primary school, my best friend at this time was a girl called Natasha and from reception till year 4 we were sole friends, nothing could seperate me and natasha - after all we were friends because we had the same birthday - what bond could be stronger?! However in the middle of year 4 enter Samantha!! Samantha was very pretty with long blonde hair (Natasha and I had often complained of our dull short brown hair!) and blue eyes - an angel on the outside, not so angellic inside! Samantha, Natasha and I survived happily as a threesome for approximatly 2 weeks untill one morning (a night is all it takes in primary school!) I was left alone at my double desk as Sam and Nat had decided that 3 was indeed a crowd! That was the first experiance I ever remember of the green eyed monster!
Since then he has reared his head in many a disguise on many occasions: a pair of jeans my friend had new that I had been admiring with her the day before. A boy who broke my heart seen the next week arms around my best friend. A love I couldn't have with the person who did have them. Your best mate standing you up to be with a girl he's known a week. Whatever the reason jealousy and I have become close aquantances since that awful day in year4. This also means that my ability to rationalise and cope with this emotion has developed too, and I would no longet call myself a jealous person. Jealousy in any relationship, I believe, comes ultimatly down to trust and know matter how much trust is in a relationship it is still possible to be jealous. And this is because Jealousy ulitmatly occures due to one thing, a thing that has had men go to war, a thing that has been the muse to the most amazing poetry and music on our little planet. This one thing is simply an emotion known as Love. Love in all its many wonderful and varied forms can cause jealousy. I'm not talking here about the kind of jealousy that makes you want a pair of shoes on a person in the street (that I call envy) I'm thinking of the kind of jealousy that comes between friends, boyfriends, girlfriends, lovers, brothers, sisters. The feeling that that person "belongs" to you in one way or another and the feeling of loss, anger, pain, hurt - whatever that you get when you realise they too have or you dread that they will let you down, desert you, not love you. As humans the best thing we can feel is love. It is the best gift we can give and even better to recieve it but the pain it can also cause can be incredible. Now you may think me odd for saying this but everytime I get jealous now (on whatever level, be it basic and fleeting or extreme paranoia) after the initial thoughts of hurt/pain/anger I am greatful for the feeling, because it shows that I can feel love (whatever kind) and that is something to be greatful for don't you think? Next time you get jealous examine your reasons - does love enter the situation? If so be happy! breath and let it go! (easier said than done I know but it helps sort of!) chances are your love is reciprocated in some way and that, as I said, is even better!
I would never presume to be an expert on this as its different for everyone and such a complex emotion but this was just my mind rambling what I've been pondering the last month or so! Hope it makes you think!let me know your thoughts... :D
xxx
Thursday, December 28, 2006
Friday, December 15, 2006
Home is...
...Unconditional Love.
...No bills to pay.
...A full fridge.
...Fighting with your 14 year old brother over the T.V remote till he sits on you.
...Realising your 14 year old brother will from now all always be taller than you and therefore win the fights.
...My divinely wonderful bed.
...My mummy.
...Hugs.
...My daddy.
...Hugs.
...My house.
...Laughter.
...Fights over the washing up.
...Rediculous dancing around the kitchen with my mam.
...Watching old movies in my PJ's.
...Old friends.
...Old memories.
...Favorite places.
...Missed faces.
...Annoying my brother (which one depends on my mood!) :D
...Coffee in Nero like old times.
...Finding my bedroom has turned into the family store room whilst I've been away!
...Familiarity.
...Comfort.
...Relaxation.
...The ability to talk over the T.V! ;)
...Reading things I haven't read in yonks!
...Family traditions.
...Long family days out walking,shopping,picnicing & visiting National Trust houses.
Home is...my home, it is the reason I am who I am. It is the people who make me the way I am and it is the things and people that remind me of why I am the way I am.
I love my home.
...No bills to pay.
...A full fridge.
...Fighting with your 14 year old brother over the T.V remote till he sits on you.
...Realising your 14 year old brother will from now all always be taller than you and therefore win the fights.
...My divinely wonderful bed.
...My mummy.
...Hugs.
...My daddy.
...Hugs.
...My house.
...Laughter.
...Fights over the washing up.
...Rediculous dancing around the kitchen with my mam.
...Watching old movies in my PJ's.
...Old friends.
...Old memories.
...Favorite places.
...Missed faces.
...Annoying my brother (which one depends on my mood!) :D
...Coffee in Nero like old times.
...Finding my bedroom has turned into the family store room whilst I've been away!
...Familiarity.
...Comfort.
...Relaxation.
...The ability to talk over the T.V! ;)
...Reading things I haven't read in yonks!
...Family traditions.
...Long family days out walking,shopping,picnicing & visiting National Trust houses.
Home is...my home, it is the reason I am who I am. It is the people who make me the way I am and it is the things and people that remind me of why I am the way I am.
I love my home.
Monday, November 27, 2006
Organisation
I hate that word! I have all my life had a real problem organising myself regularly and efficently. Instead I go through stages of being really prepared, organised and efficent, making lists and using my diary. However once this period of manic organisation is over I am left floundering in a wave of emails and deadlines that I am going to miss if I don't pull my finger out. Right now my deadlines are undercontrol but my email-replying skills have suffered. I never seem to have enough hours in the day to do everything I need to do. I never seem to be able to remember important things despite numerous reminders in my diary or on my phone. My mum and dad often refurre to me as an 'air-head' in times of loving frustration and I always found that quite unfair untill today! I am HOPELESS at being truely organised. This can lead to bigger problems such as missing deadlines not necessarily to do with work.
Today for example I found an email in my Inbox which was was sent on Friday but I only read today because I check my mail so sporadically, I had to reply to this email by Friday evening or it meant I would get in trouble. Now although I find the fact that I was expected to check my emails more than once in a day, in order to get and reply to this email highly unfair and silly (surely he could have given me the weekend!) it was my own fault!
I always say I will do things "in a minite" but don't often get round to them till a couple of days later....that is WRONG!!
And a couple of weeks ago I missed the start of a shift at work because I assumed but didnt check the time of my shift to see if it was different from the week before.
This is me being hopeless and disorganised in the worst way!
What can I do to solve this? Help!
xxx
Today for example I found an email in my Inbox which was was sent on Friday but I only read today because I check my mail so sporadically, I had to reply to this email by Friday evening or it meant I would get in trouble. Now although I find the fact that I was expected to check my emails more than once in a day, in order to get and reply to this email highly unfair and silly (surely he could have given me the weekend!) it was my own fault!
I always say I will do things "in a minite" but don't often get round to them till a couple of days later....that is WRONG!!
And a couple of weeks ago I missed the start of a shift at work because I assumed but didnt check the time of my shift to see if it was different from the week before.
This is me being hopeless and disorganised in the worst way!
What can I do to solve this? Help!
xxx
Saturday, November 25, 2006
Bandwagon anyone?
Ummmmm....band wagon here I come!...
Full Name:: Ffion Mary George
Birthday:: 25th April 1986
Birthplace:: Bath
Eye Color:: Dark Brown
Hair Color:: Brown
Height:: 5'3 and 1/2" (the half is important!)
Weight:: 8stone give or take a few pounds depedning on the choc intake!
Right handed or Left handed?: Right
Your Heritage:: Welsh (mainly it would take too long to go through the exact!)
My Worst Habit:: Talking over films!
Zodiac Sign:: Taurus
Shoe Size:: 5
Pants Size:: 8/10....I swear I'm a 9!!
Innie or Outie?: Innie
Parents Still Together?: Yes
The Shoes You Wore Today:: My favourite trainers
Your Weakness:: Chocolate, eyes, chocolate and an amazing voice...like Michael Buble makes me go weak! :D
Your Fears:: Spiders, Deep water and fish that are bigger than my hand (kind of links with the deep water thing!)
Your Perfect Pizza:: Hawiian - if only!
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:: get a 2.1 in my year
Your Most Overused Phrase On An Instant Messenger: hehe
Thoughts First Waking Up:: How long can i realistically stay here?!
Your Best Physical Feature:: Eyes
Your Bedtime:: If no essay then when I'm tired!
Your Most Missed Memory:: The summer and times with my nan
MY FAVORITES
Favorite color?: Green of any shade!
Food?: I dunno I love so many things but I suppose you cant beat a good roast, lamb preferably!
Sport?: To watch, Rugby or tennis to play umm, swimming, jogging Im not very sporty!
Animal?: Horse
Ice Cream?: Cookie Dough
Candy?: Lemon sherbert or bonbons
Store?: Topshop is my mecca but theres a shop in Bath called the Yellow shop which u cant beat!
Salad Dressing?: Mums
Actor?: Alan Rickman, Emma Thompson any good English actor. Of the older school...all the greats - Marylin, Grace, Audrey etc!
Song?: Oh I dunno its ever changing but I think "The way you look tonight" by Frank Sinatra
Letter?: Q....i dunno why!
Number?: 3
Gum?: Peppermint but it gives me hiccups
Holiday?: Helford, Cornwall
Season?: Summer
Toothpaste Flavor?: Mint - do you get other flavours?
Radio Station?: Radio 1
Perfume?: Flower by Kenzo or J'adore by Dior
Scent besides perfume?: baking, grass, hot tarmac thats just been rained on...amazing!!and warm skin
Body part on the opposite sex?: Eyes
FRIENDS AND LIFE
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?: happy
How Do You Want To Die?: Oblivious
Which One Of Your Friends Acts The Most Like You?: Kat is as mad as me but otherwise no one - I am unique!
Who's The Loudest?: Helen bless her although I feel i give her a run for her money on occasion!
Who Makes You Laugh The Most?: All of them for different reasons but probably Ben as he goes out of his way to make me laugh!
Who Have You Known The Longest?: Anne at home but here Naomi
When Have You Cried The Most?: Thursday night
What Is The Best Feeling In The World?: Love
Worst Feeling?: Irrational fear and loneliness
Where Do You Want To Live When You Grow Up?: Ideally the country but I'll go wherever I'm needed!
If You Could Change One Thing About You What Would It Be?: My Nose
How Long Do You Think You'll Live?: Silly question
FINISH EACH SENTENCE
Let's walk on the: wall
Let's look at the: clouds together
What a nice: view
Where did all the: sheep come from?
Why can't we: be together?
Silly, little: munchkin
Isn't it weird that: men dont know what periods feel like!!
Never under any circumstance: mock the welsh....you will be beaten to a pulp!
I wish: I was a bird!
Everyone has a: brain (?)
I am: silly
HAVE YOU EVER
Been In Love?: yes
Mooned Someone?: no
Been Rejected?: Yes
Ran Away From Home?: yes
Skipped School?: No
Thought About Suicide?: No
Slept Outside?: yes, not just in a tent
Laughed So Hard You Cried?: Yes
Cried In School?: Yes
Thrown Up In School?: Not that I remember, Ive fainted in school tho
Wanted To Be a Model?: Yes
Cheated On Someone?: No
Done Something Really Stupid That You Still Laugh At Today?: Hell Yeah!
Seen A Dead Body?: Yes
Drank Alcohol?: Yes
Smoked?: Yes
Been On Drugs?: No
Eaten Sushi?: No
Been On Stage?: Lots
Gone Skinny Dipping?: Yes
Shoplifted?: Do the mints in restaurants count?
Been Drunk?: Yes
Been Called A Tease?: Yes
Been Beaten Up?: Not outside a Tae-Kwon-Do class no
DO YOU
Swear?: Very rarely
Sing Well?: Not well but I sing frequently ufortuantly!
Shower Daily?: Yes, it gets me up!
Want To Go To College?: Done it!
Want To Get Married?: I would love to get married!
Believe In Yourself?: Mostly
Get Motion Sickness?: Never, stomach of steel!!
Think You Are Attractive?: I find it hard to believe.
Get Along With Your Parents?: Yes
Like Thunderstorms?: If im out in them, yes! if im inside no...is that odd?
Play An Instrument?: Played the trumpet for a couple of years
Own An IPOD?: No but I have an mp3
Pray?: Yes
Go To Church?: Yes
Sleep With Stuffed Animals?: Yes! 4!
Keep A Journal/Diary?: Not anymore
Dance In The Rain?: When ever possible
Sing In The Shower?: Occasionally, more fequently in the Bath
THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke?: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King?: Depends, McD burger, BK chips
Single or Group Dates?: Single
Chocolate or Vanilla?: Chocolate
Strawberries or Blueberries?: Strawberries but Raspberries are my fav!
Meat or Veggies?: Meat all the way
TV or Movie?: Movies, although you know they are called films right?
Guitar or Drums?: Guitar
Adidas or Nike?: Nike
Chinese or Mexican?: Chinese
Cheerios or Corn Flakes?: Corn flakes
Cake or Pie?: Cake
MTV or VH1?: VH1 they have it on free view!
Blind or Deaf?: Deaf
Boxers or Briefs?: Briefs but i love my girl boxers!
CAN YOU
Do The Splits?: No.
Write With Both Hands?: No
Whistle?: Yes
Blow A Bubble?: Yes
Roll Your Tongue In A Circle?: Yes
Cross Your Eyes?: Kind of
Walk With Your Toes Curled?: ...Apparently so!
Touch Your Tongue to Your Nose?: Yes! go me!
Dance?: I love it!
Eat Whatever You Want And Not Worry? Yes tho I probably should worry!
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON
You Touched:: Errr either Burbage or Helen...or the taxi driver when i handed over money?!
You Talked To On The Phone:: Mummy
You Hugged:: myself just now but before that Burbage
You Yelled At:: I yelled at Burbage...oops! sorry hun!
You Played A Sport With:: Oh dear too long ago! Kids on camp maybe?
WHAT'S THE LAST
Time You Laughed?: During the film "Starter for 10"
Time You Cried?: Thurday
Movie You Watched?: Starter for 10
Flavor Of Gum You Chewed?: peppermint yesterday
Joke You Told?: I dunno!
Song You've Sung?: Aimee Mann
RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT
Where Are You?: in bed
What Can You See Out Your Window?: Curtains but when theyre open trees and the road.
Are You Listening To Music?: Yes
What Are You Wearing?: My fav Pyjamas
What's On Your Mousepad?: Laptop
BELIEFS
Do you believe there is life on other planets?: wouldnt surprise me!
Do you believe in miracles?: Yes
Magic?: Yes, not good magic tho!
Love at first sight?: Never experianced it but some people swear it happens...who knows!?
God?: Yes
Satan?: Yes
Ghosts?: No
Santa?: No but yes underneath!
Evolution?: Dont get me started please!
IN A GUY...
Fav Eye Color:: Brown/Bright Blue/Green....actually anything but usually brown
Fav Hair Color:: Brown but I have been known to deviate!
Short or Long Hair:: short/middling
Height:: taller than me, but not by too much!
Weight:: Don't mind
RANDOM
What Country Would You Most Like To Visit?: China/Japan
Number Of CD's I Own:: Lots but i never counted
Do you have tattoos/piercings:: Ears are pierced x 4
Your Good Luck Charm:: Dont believe in luck but my teddy always makes me feel happy!
How many pillows do you sleep with?: 1 special one!
Do you drink milk?: yes
Person You Hate Most:: no one!
Most Outdated Phrase:: wicked! or Wazzup!
Do you think God has a gender?: Dont think so! why should he have to be one or the other?
Where do you think we go when we die?: Either heaven or hell
How many rings until you answer the phone?: However many times it takes till i reach it!
What is something scientists need to invent?: I agree with Nic a time machine would be awesome!!
Are you a health freak?: No
Are you a virgin?: Yes
If you could travel into space, where would you go?: Venus, just like the name!
What is the worst weather?: Drizzly and grey, neither here nor there...yucky!
Did you play with Barbies as a child?: Yes but mainly it was just me and the woodlice!
How many grades have you failed?: nil! yay for me!
Ahhh there we go, that was fun hope u all learned a bit more about me! hehe! xxx
Full Name:: Ffion Mary George
Birthday:: 25th April 1986
Birthplace:: Bath
Eye Color:: Dark Brown
Hair Color:: Brown
Height:: 5'3 and 1/2" (the half is important!)
Weight:: 8stone give or take a few pounds depedning on the choc intake!
Right handed or Left handed?: Right
Your Heritage:: Welsh (mainly it would take too long to go through the exact!)
My Worst Habit:: Talking over films!
Zodiac Sign:: Taurus
Shoe Size:: 5
Pants Size:: 8/10....I swear I'm a 9!!
Innie or Outie?: Innie
Parents Still Together?: Yes
The Shoes You Wore Today:: My favourite trainers
Your Weakness:: Chocolate, eyes, chocolate and an amazing voice...like Michael Buble makes me go weak! :D
Your Fears:: Spiders, Deep water and fish that are bigger than my hand (kind of links with the deep water thing!)
Your Perfect Pizza:: Hawiian - if only!
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:: get a 2.1 in my year
Your Most Overused Phrase On An Instant Messenger: hehe
Thoughts First Waking Up:: How long can i realistically stay here?!
Your Best Physical Feature:: Eyes
Your Bedtime:: If no essay then when I'm tired!
Your Most Missed Memory:: The summer and times with my nan
MY FAVORITES
Favorite color?: Green of any shade!
Food?: I dunno I love so many things but I suppose you cant beat a good roast, lamb preferably!
Sport?: To watch, Rugby or tennis to play umm, swimming, jogging Im not very sporty!
Animal?: Horse
Ice Cream?: Cookie Dough
Candy?: Lemon sherbert or bonbons
Store?: Topshop is my mecca but theres a shop in Bath called the Yellow shop which u cant beat!
Salad Dressing?: Mums
Actor?: Alan Rickman, Emma Thompson any good English actor. Of the older school...all the greats - Marylin, Grace, Audrey etc!
Song?: Oh I dunno its ever changing but I think "The way you look tonight" by Frank Sinatra
Letter?: Q....i dunno why!
Number?: 3
Gum?: Peppermint but it gives me hiccups
Holiday?: Helford, Cornwall
Season?: Summer
Toothpaste Flavor?: Mint - do you get other flavours?
Radio Station?: Radio 1
Perfume?: Flower by Kenzo or J'adore by Dior
Scent besides perfume?: baking, grass, hot tarmac thats just been rained on...amazing!!and warm skin
Body part on the opposite sex?: Eyes
FRIENDS AND LIFE
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?: happy
How Do You Want To Die?: Oblivious
Which One Of Your Friends Acts The Most Like You?: Kat is as mad as me but otherwise no one - I am unique!
Who's The Loudest?: Helen bless her although I feel i give her a run for her money on occasion!
Who Makes You Laugh The Most?: All of them for different reasons but probably Ben as he goes out of his way to make me laugh!
Who Have You Known The Longest?: Anne at home but here Naomi
When Have You Cried The Most?: Thursday night
What Is The Best Feeling In The World?: Love
Worst Feeling?: Irrational fear and loneliness
Where Do You Want To Live When You Grow Up?: Ideally the country but I'll go wherever I'm needed!
If You Could Change One Thing About You What Would It Be?: My Nose
How Long Do You Think You'll Live?: Silly question
FINISH EACH SENTENCE
Let's walk on the: wall
Let's look at the: clouds together
What a nice: view
Where did all the: sheep come from?
Why can't we: be together?
Silly, little: munchkin
Isn't it weird that: men dont know what periods feel like!!
Never under any circumstance: mock the welsh....you will be beaten to a pulp!
I wish: I was a bird!
Everyone has a: brain (?)
I am: silly
HAVE YOU EVER
Been In Love?: yes
Mooned Someone?: no
Been Rejected?: Yes
Ran Away From Home?: yes
Skipped School?: No
Thought About Suicide?: No
Slept Outside?: yes, not just in a tent
Laughed So Hard You Cried?: Yes
Cried In School?: Yes
Thrown Up In School?: Not that I remember, Ive fainted in school tho
Wanted To Be a Model?: Yes
Cheated On Someone?: No
Done Something Really Stupid That You Still Laugh At Today?: Hell Yeah!
Seen A Dead Body?: Yes
Drank Alcohol?: Yes
Smoked?: Yes
Been On Drugs?: No
Eaten Sushi?: No
Been On Stage?: Lots
Gone Skinny Dipping?: Yes
Shoplifted?: Do the mints in restaurants count?
Been Drunk?: Yes
Been Called A Tease?: Yes
Been Beaten Up?: Not outside a Tae-Kwon-Do class no
DO YOU
Swear?: Very rarely
Sing Well?: Not well but I sing frequently ufortuantly!
Shower Daily?: Yes, it gets me up!
Want To Go To College?: Done it!
Want To Get Married?: I would love to get married!
Believe In Yourself?: Mostly
Get Motion Sickness?: Never, stomach of steel!!
Think You Are Attractive?: I find it hard to believe.
Get Along With Your Parents?: Yes
Like Thunderstorms?: If im out in them, yes! if im inside no...is that odd?
Play An Instrument?: Played the trumpet for a couple of years
Own An IPOD?: No but I have an mp3
Pray?: Yes
Go To Church?: Yes
Sleep With Stuffed Animals?: Yes! 4!
Keep A Journal/Diary?: Not anymore
Dance In The Rain?: When ever possible
Sing In The Shower?: Occasionally, more fequently in the Bath
THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke?: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King?: Depends, McD burger, BK chips
Single or Group Dates?: Single
Chocolate or Vanilla?: Chocolate
Strawberries or Blueberries?: Strawberries but Raspberries are my fav!
Meat or Veggies?: Meat all the way
TV or Movie?: Movies, although you know they are called films right?
Guitar or Drums?: Guitar
Adidas or Nike?: Nike
Chinese or Mexican?: Chinese
Cheerios or Corn Flakes?: Corn flakes
Cake or Pie?: Cake
MTV or VH1?: VH1 they have it on free view!
Blind or Deaf?: Deaf
Boxers or Briefs?: Briefs but i love my girl boxers!
CAN YOU
Do The Splits?: No.
Write With Both Hands?: No
Whistle?: Yes
Blow A Bubble?: Yes
Roll Your Tongue In A Circle?: Yes
Cross Your Eyes?: Kind of
Walk With Your Toes Curled?: ...Apparently so!
Touch Your Tongue to Your Nose?: Yes! go me!
Dance?: I love it!
Eat Whatever You Want And Not Worry? Yes tho I probably should worry!
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON
You Touched:: Errr either Burbage or Helen...or the taxi driver when i handed over money?!
You Talked To On The Phone:: Mummy
You Hugged:: myself just now but before that Burbage
You Yelled At:: I yelled at Burbage...oops! sorry hun!
You Played A Sport With:: Oh dear too long ago! Kids on camp maybe?
WHAT'S THE LAST
Time You Laughed?: During the film "Starter for 10"
Time You Cried?: Thurday
Movie You Watched?: Starter for 10
Flavor Of Gum You Chewed?: peppermint yesterday
Joke You Told?: I dunno!
Song You've Sung?: Aimee Mann
RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT
Where Are You?: in bed
What Can You See Out Your Window?: Curtains but when theyre open trees and the road.
Are You Listening To Music?: Yes
What Are You Wearing?: My fav Pyjamas
What's On Your Mousepad?: Laptop
BELIEFS
Do you believe there is life on other planets?: wouldnt surprise me!
Do you believe in miracles?: Yes
Magic?: Yes, not good magic tho!
Love at first sight?: Never experianced it but some people swear it happens...who knows!?
God?: Yes
Satan?: Yes
Ghosts?: No
Santa?: No but yes underneath!
Evolution?: Dont get me started please!
IN A GUY...
Fav Eye Color:: Brown/Bright Blue/Green....actually anything but usually brown
Fav Hair Color:: Brown but I have been known to deviate!
Short or Long Hair:: short/middling
Height:: taller than me, but not by too much!
Weight:: Don't mind
RANDOM
What Country Would You Most Like To Visit?: China/Japan
Number Of CD's I Own:: Lots but i never counted
Do you have tattoos/piercings:: Ears are pierced x 4
Your Good Luck Charm:: Dont believe in luck but my teddy always makes me feel happy!
How many pillows do you sleep with?: 1 special one!
Do you drink milk?: yes
Person You Hate Most:: no one!
Most Outdated Phrase:: wicked! or Wazzup!
Do you think God has a gender?: Dont think so! why should he have to be one or the other?
Where do you think we go when we die?: Either heaven or hell
How many rings until you answer the phone?: However many times it takes till i reach it!
What is something scientists need to invent?: I agree with Nic a time machine would be awesome!!
Are you a health freak?: No
Are you a virgin?: Yes
If you could travel into space, where would you go?: Venus, just like the name!
What is the worst weather?: Drizzly and grey, neither here nor there...yucky!
Did you play with Barbies as a child?: Yes but mainly it was just me and the woodlice!
How many grades have you failed?: nil! yay for me!
Ahhh there we go, that was fun hope u all learned a bit more about me! hehe! xxx
Sunday, November 19, 2006
The INformal Ball!
I'm in the middle of an essay but have writers block so have come on here to work out my block by writing something un-romancolonisationbetween500BCand41AD-related.
On friday night the inhabitants of House 'Musgrave' (aka Annika, Helen Burbage and Naomi) decended on the house Greencroft for a posh dinner of Fajita's, fizzy jelly (which Heather made but was just like my daddy's!) and Pavlova which was a triumph from helen! The reason for this slap-up meal was because that night was the Informal Ball at Mary's. An INformal ball? basically the concept is the same as the midsummer ball but the theme is more fancy dress and (surprisesurprise) informal. Last Year's Ball which I couldn't go to had the theme of "Happily Ever After" and the theme for this year's was "A Night at the Movies". A chance to dress up glam or silly depending on your mood.
Our house all decided to dress as silly (ish) characters. We had....
Cinderella (Naomi)
Dorothy (Heather)
Mary Jane from Spiderman2 (Helen)
Elle Woods from Legally Blonde (Annika)
Bridget Jones (Helen Burbage)
Captin Jack Sparrow (Kat)
Me as Lara Croft.
So those are the characters. The night also included a big Band and bouncy entertainments such as A castle with a ball pool and an inflatable Gladiator ring! All good fun! It was a really fun night and as always the dressing up and dancing was the best part. Here are some more pictures of the night...
Kat and my rice boobs!
Lara shooting a seemingly innocent Cinderella...It's a disguise! she is really a deamon says Lara!
There are lots more photos but my poor blog won't cope! You will see them soon I'm sure!
I'm hoping that after writing this and eating some yummy food my essay will flow more easliy....I'm sleepy now tho...hmmm!
Ffi xxx
On friday night the inhabitants of House 'Musgrave' (aka Annika, Helen Burbage and Naomi) decended on the house Greencroft for a posh dinner of Fajita's, fizzy jelly (which Heather made but was just like my daddy's!) and Pavlova which was a triumph from helen! The reason for this slap-up meal was because that night was the Informal Ball at Mary's. An INformal ball? basically the concept is the same as the midsummer ball but the theme is more fancy dress and (surprisesurprise) informal. Last Year's Ball which I couldn't go to had the theme of "Happily Ever After" and the theme for this year's was "A Night at the Movies". A chance to dress up glam or silly depending on your mood.
Our house all decided to dress as silly (ish) characters. We had....
Cinderella (Naomi)
Dorothy (Heather)
Mary Jane from Spiderman2 (Helen)
Elle Woods from Legally Blonde (Annika)
Bridget Jones (Helen Burbage)
Captin Jack Sparrow (Kat)
Me as Lara Croft.
So those are the characters. The night also included a big Band and bouncy entertainments such as A castle with a ball pool and an inflatable Gladiator ring! All good fun! It was a really fun night and as always the dressing up and dancing was the best part. Here are some more pictures of the night...
Kat and my rice boobs!
Lara shooting a seemingly innocent Cinderella...It's a disguise! she is really a deamon says Lara!
There are lots more photos but my poor blog won't cope! You will see them soon I'm sure!
I'm hoping that after writing this and eating some yummy food my essay will flow more easliy....I'm sleepy now tho...hmmm!
Ffi xxx
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Choices...
I have been thinking alot this week about things we have to do in life, things that are necessary - eating, drinking, breathing. These things are a necessary part of our lives, they are vital to our survival.
Choices however are things that are not necessary. They can be important and even crucial but essentially we could go one of two ways when making a decision or choice. Think what would happen for example, if we made the choice not to breath...things would go horribly wrong very quickly right?
The point I am trying to make is that it has made me think alot over the last month that when we make a choice...any choice, our life is change according to that choice. If we chose option A our life would turn out this way or your decision could affect someone one way but if you chose option B your choice could affect them in a completely different way and your life could turn on a totally different path.
The realisation I have come to recently, is that without the knowledge I have that ultimatly my God controls my life and that my decisions are made in the knowledge of his will and purpose for me, life would be a very scary thing. The knowledge that I could make my life one thing or a totally different thing with just one choice is scary. Often in retrospect we see a decision was totally wrong (or the opposite) but at the time it can seem such a good choice.
The point I am trying to make is eluding me right now but you can probably summerise for yourselves what I'm talking about. Decisions are hard and our choices often affect others as well as ourselves so we need to be careful and thoughtful about them. One good example is the choice to buy fairtrade or not....just think of the consequences of either choice....see what I mean?
Thats all for now, hopefully I wont be as long writing next time...
Ffi xxx
Choices however are things that are not necessary. They can be important and even crucial but essentially we could go one of two ways when making a decision or choice. Think what would happen for example, if we made the choice not to breath...things would go horribly wrong very quickly right?
The point I am trying to make is that it has made me think alot over the last month that when we make a choice...any choice, our life is change according to that choice. If we chose option A our life would turn out this way or your decision could affect someone one way but if you chose option B your choice could affect them in a completely different way and your life could turn on a totally different path.
The realisation I have come to recently, is that without the knowledge I have that ultimatly my God controls my life and that my decisions are made in the knowledge of his will and purpose for me, life would be a very scary thing. The knowledge that I could make my life one thing or a totally different thing with just one choice is scary. Often in retrospect we see a decision was totally wrong (or the opposite) but at the time it can seem such a good choice.
The point I am trying to make is eluding me right now but you can probably summerise for yourselves what I'm talking about. Decisions are hard and our choices often affect others as well as ourselves so we need to be careful and thoughtful about them. One good example is the choice to buy fairtrade or not....just think of the consequences of either choice....see what I mean?
Thats all for now, hopefully I wont be as long writing next time...
Ffi xxx
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
Stealing Helen's Joke Idea. One my mum always says...
"Isaiah - Comfort Ye My People"........."Yes, Come for Tea My People."
Third time a Bridesmaid....
....good job I'm not a superstitious person really!
I had a phone call whilst babysitting on saturday night, at first I thought I was a prank cos all I could hear from the phone when I answered was this very high pitched squeaking noise. I was about to hang up when I heard my friend Anne's voice emerge from the squeaking in a slightly less squeaky tone - "You'll never guess!! you'll never guess!!" Now I tend to find people who say that down a phone a tad irratating cos if I'm "never gonna guess" why say that?, just tell me! So any way she did eventually tell me and what she said explained the squeaking I'd heared when I'd answered the phone. She had gotten engaged to her boyfriend a few minets before and had told her mum and dad (who knew already obviously) immediatly and then rung me very excited.
I have known Anne since I moved into my house at the age of 3. She has since become to me alot more than a friend and more like a sister. Therefore, when I finally deciphered this message from her squeaks I have to admit that I joined in the with the incoherant squeaking contest.
She then went on to ask me if I would mind being her maid of honour. Obviously I said yes (or possibly the squeaks just increased! hehe) and the fact that she asked me made me feel so special, because as I said she feels like my sister, but she does infact have her own sister who I thought she'd ask. So you can see why I'd be so touched.
It was only after I put the phone down however, that I realised that this would be my third time as a bridesmaid and as you all probably know..."Three times a bridesmaid, never a bride!" As I said at the beginning I am not a superstitious girl, I believe my life is under the control of my Lord and Saviour but I would be telling a lie if I said it didnt give me a moments worry.
However, my blog didnt really have a point or a moral and if I'd just ended it there it would have fallen a bit flat but I really only wanted to share this little bit of exciting news with you all! I love weddings and I can't wait till her special day arrives.
Love in the masses
Ffi xxx
p.s: does being maid of honour mean I have to organise Hen night etc?? hehe oh that would be sooooo much fun!
I had a phone call whilst babysitting on saturday night, at first I thought I was a prank cos all I could hear from the phone when I answered was this very high pitched squeaking noise. I was about to hang up when I heard my friend Anne's voice emerge from the squeaking in a slightly less squeaky tone - "You'll never guess!! you'll never guess!!" Now I tend to find people who say that down a phone a tad irratating cos if I'm "never gonna guess" why say that?, just tell me! So any way she did eventually tell me and what she said explained the squeaking I'd heared when I'd answered the phone. She had gotten engaged to her boyfriend a few minets before and had told her mum and dad (who knew already obviously) immediatly and then rung me very excited.
I have known Anne since I moved into my house at the age of 3. She has since become to me alot more than a friend and more like a sister. Therefore, when I finally deciphered this message from her squeaks I have to admit that I joined in the with the incoherant squeaking contest.
She then went on to ask me if I would mind being her maid of honour. Obviously I said yes (or possibly the squeaks just increased! hehe) and the fact that she asked me made me feel so special, because as I said she feels like my sister, but she does infact have her own sister who I thought she'd ask. So you can see why I'd be so touched.
It was only after I put the phone down however, that I realised that this would be my third time as a bridesmaid and as you all probably know..."Three times a bridesmaid, never a bride!" As I said at the beginning I am not a superstitious girl, I believe my life is under the control of my Lord and Saviour but I would be telling a lie if I said it didnt give me a moments worry.
However, my blog didnt really have a point or a moral and if I'd just ended it there it would have fallen a bit flat but I really only wanted to share this little bit of exciting news with you all! I love weddings and I can't wait till her special day arrives.
Love in the masses
Ffi xxx
p.s: does being maid of honour mean I have to organise Hen night etc?? hehe oh that would be sooooo much fun!
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
A little lesson I learnt yesterday...
Never sit in a car for three hours with the radio on...apparently it means you can't start it when your mother gets back...oops!
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Just a few pictures of Camp6 2006...
We went Ice Skating, and I broke the bone in my bum...not the coxicks apparently but it hurt anyway!otherwise a great day!
Jonny, Steve (my cousin) and Luke, waiting fora ride at Drayton Manor...look scared don't they...Oh they were!!
This is Sara and Katie, two female officers with little Sam, the best camper and the sweetest kid ever (after my own brother of course!)
Well sadly that seems to be all that i can upload on here, the others wont work for some reason! sorry folks but they give you some faces to put to the stories I am likely to tell next year!
Love to the masses
xxxFfixxx
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
A Journeys End.
The past three weeks or so have been truely mad! My travels to visit our very own burbage, were great fun and a very relaxing few days (see her blog for detail - she writes so much better than I do!) We visited London, Eastbourne and Bath and went rowing, shopping and spent a day on a beach.
After my 10 days with helen I went down to cornwall on the train to join my family on the Lizard, in a lush place called heford! (i mentioned it in my last post) here are a few pics of the beautiful place..
After, me and my younger brother Rhys were travelling up to Wales (Newport first, then on upto the North) for camp, which I told u about I think in my last post.
Camp was awesome fun, and such a spirtual encouragment. The kids were all great to be around, even the "difficult" ones. I forgot sometimes that I was actually an officer and my cousin (who was leading the camp) joked once that I was having as much, if not more, fun than the campers - which is probably true as I didnt have to obey anyone or get to bed by any specific time! the whole week was great fun and I'll definatly be doing it again, hopefully with the same team!
Now I'm back and I have to find myself new employment as the old Manager of Caffe Nero has left and the new one (according to my friend) is not at all nice to work for (to paraphrase!)
So it has been CVs and Applications all the way for me the last few days, and im getting quite bored with no employment so I have started on my project (the thing I did the 3 weeks of digging for) and I am planning on another week of archaeologising next week (if a job doesnt crop up first) to keep me busy...thats how bored I am!
I found out yesterday (I wrote all of the above a few days ago) that a good friend of mine was found dead two months ago in his flat. He had been dead around three weeks before he was found and the circumstances are thought to be suspisious. This was a massive shock for me, as u can imagine, as the last I had heard he was off to Italy and then to Southampton Uni. How I didnt know about this sooner has been the worst thing. My friend matt said he had tried to get hold of me in everyway possible but didnt have my number, and as Petes mobile is still missing he couldnt get it there! As this had been the first I had seen of him since getting back from Uni he could finally tell me.
I missed the funeral and inquest and everything, the inquest has been postponed untill further investigations can be made.
He was only 22, not a christian and having to read about the circumstances on the internet (arhives of the papers) just made it all worse. I cant stop myself imagining te circumstance, or asking how and why? he was such a great guy, always loving and friendly so why?
I dont know why I'm telling you all this but its just something that has been on my mind constantly since yesterday, i couldnt sleep and I needed to splurge my thoughts somewhere! So anyway...thanks for listening!
I love u all, take care guys
xxx Ffi xxx
After my 10 days with helen I went down to cornwall on the train to join my family on the Lizard, in a lush place called heford! (i mentioned it in my last post) here are a few pics of the beautiful place..
After, me and my younger brother Rhys were travelling up to Wales (Newport first, then on upto the North) for camp, which I told u about I think in my last post.
Camp was awesome fun, and such a spirtual encouragment. The kids were all great to be around, even the "difficult" ones. I forgot sometimes that I was actually an officer and my cousin (who was leading the camp) joked once that I was having as much, if not more, fun than the campers - which is probably true as I didnt have to obey anyone or get to bed by any specific time! the whole week was great fun and I'll definatly be doing it again, hopefully with the same team!
Now I'm back and I have to find myself new employment as the old Manager of Caffe Nero has left and the new one (according to my friend) is not at all nice to work for (to paraphrase!)
So it has been CVs and Applications all the way for me the last few days, and im getting quite bored with no employment so I have started on my project (the thing I did the 3 weeks of digging for) and I am planning on another week of archaeologising next week (if a job doesnt crop up first) to keep me busy...thats how bored I am!
I found out yesterday (I wrote all of the above a few days ago) that a good friend of mine was found dead two months ago in his flat. He had been dead around three weeks before he was found and the circumstances are thought to be suspisious. This was a massive shock for me, as u can imagine, as the last I had heard he was off to Italy and then to Southampton Uni. How I didnt know about this sooner has been the worst thing. My friend matt said he had tried to get hold of me in everyway possible but didnt have my number, and as Petes mobile is still missing he couldnt get it there! As this had been the first I had seen of him since getting back from Uni he could finally tell me.
I missed the funeral and inquest and everything, the inquest has been postponed untill further investigations can be made.
He was only 22, not a christian and having to read about the circumstances on the internet (arhives of the papers) just made it all worse. I cant stop myself imagining te circumstance, or asking how and why? he was such a great guy, always loving and friendly so why?
I dont know why I'm telling you all this but its just something that has been on my mind constantly since yesterday, i couldnt sleep and I needed to splurge my thoughts somewhere! So anyway...thanks for listening!
I love u all, take care guys
xxx Ffi xxx
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Mayhem!
As you guys will undoubtably know I am the worlds worst packer...I'm slow, I'm uneconomical and I'm totally indecisive! Well it is 9.00am the morning I go to cornwall with my family and I'm running round the house like a mad thing. Burbage is blisfully unaware in her room upstairs, as she is still fast asleep. The last 10 days I have spent visiting our Burbage in eastbourne, then she came back to sunny Bath to experiance the joys that so far only Nicola has experianced.
However I will tell you all a bout this on my return in two weeks time. Right now I'm just faffing whilst waiting for the washing to finish drying and the printer to finish printing.
So for me it is a week in my favorite part of cornwall, Helford (where Daphne DuMorier's book 'Frenchman's Creek' is set) with my family then off to sunny (I hope) Wales with my little brother on Camp.
This was just a quick blog to let you all know I haven't died and I will publish all my escapedes as soon as I get back.
If you can't wait till then....bug Burbage for info! Right now its back to the mayhem!
Love to the masses....Oh and wish me luck for camp, would appreciate prayers too. (hmmmm, luck and prayers in the same sentance...is that sacriligeous?)
All my love Me xxxxxx
However I will tell you all a bout this on my return in two weeks time. Right now I'm just faffing whilst waiting for the washing to finish drying and the printer to finish printing.
So for me it is a week in my favorite part of cornwall, Helford (where Daphne DuMorier's book 'Frenchman's Creek' is set) with my family then off to sunny (I hope) Wales with my little brother on Camp.
This was just a quick blog to let you all know I haven't died and I will publish all my escapedes as soon as I get back.
If you can't wait till then....bug Burbage for info! Right now its back to the mayhem!
Love to the masses....Oh and wish me luck for camp, would appreciate prayers too. (hmmmm, luck and prayers in the same sentance...is that sacriligeous?)
All my love Me xxxxxx
Saturday, July 29, 2006
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Far too pink!
Have decided that the pinkness of my blog was far too headache inducing so it has changed to something simpler....I'm not sure tho....comments would be welcomed!
love to the masses!
xxxxxxx
love to the masses!
xxxxxxx
Sunday, July 16, 2006
An Unplanned Blog-Post...
I dont really have anything specific to talk about in this post but I thought it was about time i updated so we shall see where my mind takes me....brace yourselves!
This week has been a mixture of two worlds, the world of work and the world of home and my family.
I have, after much deliberation, gone back to work for Caffe Nero, but in my defence, only for 2 weeks as I thought it better to work before my 3 week holiday and earn a bit more cash than to waste two weeks just lazing around doing nothing!
The days I work are so long and manic that by the time I get home Ive just got the energy to crawl in to bed and die before I get up the next morning. However this week has been different cos I have been working every other day in the Cafe meaning I get one mad day on, one day off, one mad day on, one day off (etc.etc). On my days off I am spening alot of time with my mum and dad, which is really nice as in the past my dad has worked away alot so it was nice to be with both of them at the same time and without the stress of work.
Earlier this week my aunt and Uncle(on my dads side) came down and we spent the day with them just pottering in the garden (something I love!) and chatting. It was so nice to see them and to hear the great stories about my little cousins antics back home in wales, as we dont get to see them that often and they are all growing up so fast!
I realised from this week spent so close to my family (or rather i realised it again) that family is such a special thing. They are the only people in the world who you are connected to by your blood/genetics/traits what ever you wanna call it. They are the same as you. Friends are amazing, I couldn't be without any of them, but at the same time regardless of the closeness or length you have known them you dont have that connection with them as you do with your brothers (or sisters) mum, dad, aunt, uncle or grandparents. Family has the same origins as you. We come from the same place (by this i dont mean location or nationality!). We are essentially the same.
This was highlighted to me when my aunt was telling me stories of my litte cousin Ffion (same name - same character), my aunt said that she finds it quite scary how similar we are in our personalities and things we do and say - its like seeing me grow up all over again apparently.
Kats post about her day with her brothers highlighted the differences between siblings (one wanted one thing and another something totally different) but it also showed how close a bond the three of them have. Love for family is amazing and yet its really inexplicable at the same time! Sometimes you could just throttle them for their annoying habits, but at the same time to try and imgine ur life without them is impossible.
For those of you who don't know already my uncle (on my mums side)is dying, he is in intensive care in hospital at the moment and isnt expected to live many weeks more. This is very difficult especailly for my mum as he is still fairly young, not a Christian and yet has always been the one person in her family she has been closest to. I dont really know how I feel about this yet, its strange, but it just reminded me starkly once again (it happens alot to me....I'm not constantly thinking of morbid things by the way!) how important family is, and how grateful I am that I have such a wonderful one!
And here are some of them...These are my cousins,the eldest is Erin, the next is Ffion (yey!) and then its little Samuel...
Wow! - for an unplanned blog it seems I've been quite coherant....it seems there is alot going on in my head I didn't even know about! :D
Love to the masses
xxx Ffi xxx
This week has been a mixture of two worlds, the world of work and the world of home and my family.
I have, after much deliberation, gone back to work for Caffe Nero, but in my defence, only for 2 weeks as I thought it better to work before my 3 week holiday and earn a bit more cash than to waste two weeks just lazing around doing nothing!
The days I work are so long and manic that by the time I get home Ive just got the energy to crawl in to bed and die before I get up the next morning. However this week has been different cos I have been working every other day in the Cafe meaning I get one mad day on, one day off, one mad day on, one day off (etc.etc). On my days off I am spening alot of time with my mum and dad, which is really nice as in the past my dad has worked away alot so it was nice to be with both of them at the same time and without the stress of work.
Earlier this week my aunt and Uncle(on my dads side) came down and we spent the day with them just pottering in the garden (something I love!) and chatting. It was so nice to see them and to hear the great stories about my little cousins antics back home in wales, as we dont get to see them that often and they are all growing up so fast!
I realised from this week spent so close to my family (or rather i realised it again) that family is such a special thing. They are the only people in the world who you are connected to by your blood/genetics/traits what ever you wanna call it. They are the same as you. Friends are amazing, I couldn't be without any of them, but at the same time regardless of the closeness or length you have known them you dont have that connection with them as you do with your brothers (or sisters) mum, dad, aunt, uncle or grandparents. Family has the same origins as you. We come from the same place (by this i dont mean location or nationality!). We are essentially the same.
This was highlighted to me when my aunt was telling me stories of my litte cousin Ffion (same name - same character), my aunt said that she finds it quite scary how similar we are in our personalities and things we do and say - its like seeing me grow up all over again apparently.
Kats post about her day with her brothers highlighted the differences between siblings (one wanted one thing and another something totally different) but it also showed how close a bond the three of them have. Love for family is amazing and yet its really inexplicable at the same time! Sometimes you could just throttle them for their annoying habits, but at the same time to try and imgine ur life without them is impossible.
For those of you who don't know already my uncle (on my mums side)is dying, he is in intensive care in hospital at the moment and isnt expected to live many weeks more. This is very difficult especailly for my mum as he is still fairly young, not a Christian and yet has always been the one person in her family she has been closest to. I dont really know how I feel about this yet, its strange, but it just reminded me starkly once again (it happens alot to me....I'm not constantly thinking of morbid things by the way!) how important family is, and how grateful I am that I have such a wonderful one!
And here are some of them...These are my cousins,the eldest is Erin, the next is Ffion (yey!) and then its little Samuel...
Wow! - for an unplanned blog it seems I've been quite coherant....it seems there is alot going on in my head I didn't even know about! :D
Love to the masses
xxx Ffi xxx
Thursday, July 06, 2006
The 6th of July 2006...What does it mean for you?
Do you ever think about the date? As more than simply a way of keeping track of the year I mean. If you think about it simply everyday amazing, wonderful, terrible and sad things happen all over the world. Each day people are born, people die, people get married, people make discoveries, make enormous leaps in their personal walks through life.
This thought really hit me today whilst re-reading Burbages blog entitled "Poem Time" the poems title is "Composed Upon Westminster Bridge September 3rd 1802". The title is the date it was written, the date it came into existence. I thought that was amazing. That poem means so much to so many people but it all started on that day on Westminster Bridge. A day that had 24hrs. A day that, to Wordsworth, was probably a day full of much more exciting events for him than simply that poem. He probably didn't think "Oh that poem will be very famous in years to come. What a days work!" he could have found his day full of more simple things such as "Oh! Steak for tea my favorite!" What I'm trying to say very inarticulately is that to Wordsworth the 3rd of September was probably not marked as a very significant day in his mind but to us it signifies that poem!
OK, think of a day, 24hrs, approximatly a third of which we spend asleep. A day doesn't last long. Its a fleeting once in a life-time experiance. We may have many September the 3rd's in our life but we will only have one September 3rd 1802 (if your Wordsworth). Each September 3rd, each day is completely different. To each person everyday brings new things. Today millions of people have died, changing forever the lives of those who knew them. Today millions will have been born, changing forever the lives of those parents of people it will know.
When thinking about tomorrow, the 7th of July 2006, it was exactly a year ago that the bombs in London occured. The 7th of July 2005 changed the lives of many thousands of people. That day was terrible and very sad to see, but it will never happen again, not in the same way anyway.
This has made me realise all over again that each day is worth living to the fullest for its own reasons. Each day brings new joys, tragedies and challenges in all shapes and sizes. well do you know what I think?....BRING IT ON!!!
July 6th 2006 - What does it mean for you?
xxx Ffi xxx
This thought really hit me today whilst re-reading Burbages blog entitled "Poem Time" the poems title is "Composed Upon Westminster Bridge September 3rd 1802". The title is the date it was written, the date it came into existence. I thought that was amazing. That poem means so much to so many people but it all started on that day on Westminster Bridge. A day that had 24hrs. A day that, to Wordsworth, was probably a day full of much more exciting events for him than simply that poem. He probably didn't think "Oh that poem will be very famous in years to come. What a days work!" he could have found his day full of more simple things such as "Oh! Steak for tea my favorite!" What I'm trying to say very inarticulately is that to Wordsworth the 3rd of September was probably not marked as a very significant day in his mind but to us it signifies that poem!
OK, think of a day, 24hrs, approximatly a third of which we spend asleep. A day doesn't last long. Its a fleeting once in a life-time experiance. We may have many September the 3rd's in our life but we will only have one September 3rd 1802 (if your Wordsworth). Each September 3rd, each day is completely different. To each person everyday brings new things. Today millions of people have died, changing forever the lives of those who knew them. Today millions will have been born, changing forever the lives of those parents of people it will know.
When thinking about tomorrow, the 7th of July 2006, it was exactly a year ago that the bombs in London occured. The 7th of July 2005 changed the lives of many thousands of people. That day was terrible and very sad to see, but it will never happen again, not in the same way anyway.
This has made me realise all over again that each day is worth living to the fullest for its own reasons. Each day brings new joys, tragedies and challenges in all shapes and sizes. well do you know what I think?....BRING IT ON!!!
July 6th 2006 - What does it mean for you?
xxx Ffi xxx
Monday, July 03, 2006
Something a little more profound from Ffion....
Can someone please tell me why it is some individuals seem to get all the hits in life??
By hits I mean bad things seem to happen to them at alarmingly frequent intervals and hardly ever any good ones! How is one person supposed to cope with such a large amount of bad events that another average individual can be fortunate enough to avoid for the majority of their lives!?
I dont mean to be a little black rain cloud here but i have noticed, over the last few days especially, that for certain people I know only bad things seem to happen to them, and they happen at an alarmingly frequent rate.
Im not even talking about things you could say were their fault, these are things totally out of their control.
Why is it some people have such good fortune in life as to avoid deaths of close reations or friends untill much later on in life? why do some people seem to suffer all the abuse for who they are or what they do or believe in and others avoid it completely? Why do some people get the reaccuring illnesses all through their life and others avoid health issues completely untill the day they die. I just dont get how these things are doled out!
I know that God has plans for us all and that everything is sent to test us, but often I wonder why these tests aren't spread out slightly more evenly! I mean look at Job, prime example here, I know its not a very fair example but then I'm not in a very fair mood right now. Don't worry I'm not blaming God at all for any of this quite the contrary infact, I guess I'm just ranting at the unfairness of the world sometimes and how sin has just screwed up everything God intended for us!
One thing I cant answer though is Why some people get all the bad things hitting them and others dont!
xxx Ffi xxx
By hits I mean bad things seem to happen to them at alarmingly frequent intervals and hardly ever any good ones! How is one person supposed to cope with such a large amount of bad events that another average individual can be fortunate enough to avoid for the majority of their lives!?
I dont mean to be a little black rain cloud here but i have noticed, over the last few days especially, that for certain people I know only bad things seem to happen to them, and they happen at an alarmingly frequent rate.
Im not even talking about things you could say were their fault, these are things totally out of their control.
Why is it some people have such good fortune in life as to avoid deaths of close reations or friends untill much later on in life? why do some people seem to suffer all the abuse for who they are or what they do or believe in and others avoid it completely? Why do some people get the reaccuring illnesses all through their life and others avoid health issues completely untill the day they die. I just dont get how these things are doled out!
I know that God has plans for us all and that everything is sent to test us, but often I wonder why these tests aren't spread out slightly more evenly! I mean look at Job, prime example here, I know its not a very fair example but then I'm not in a very fair mood right now. Don't worry I'm not blaming God at all for any of this quite the contrary infact, I guess I'm just ranting at the unfairness of the world sometimes and how sin has just screwed up everything God intended for us!
One thing I cant answer though is Why some people get all the bad things hitting them and others dont!
xxx Ffi xxx
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Farewell Summer Days in the Royal Cresent, Hello Jobs!
Well, as some of you will know I planned a Summer lazing in my beloved Royal Cresent, with friends a guitar and a good book, but it turns out that infact the RC has, in the words of my tactful little brother become "the Gheto of the local Cheltnam Average" (CHAVS). And it is alas true. Before you all start thinking Im just being a Snob I want u to consider how calm and tranquil a retreat that once beloved haven will now be, and tell me if you would like it?!
I have therefore, been looking the last few days for a job to fill the Cresent free hours this summer and to save some money for the coming year. I am job hunting as i do not intend to return to the curse that is Nero(...I will keep you posted on how this goes, I forsee myself working there as an old age pensioner reguardless of all my attempts to free myself from its grip!, my boss seems determined to have me back!) and fancy a turn at something new!
As to my activities so far this holiday, they have comprised mainly of Black and White, Fred and Ginger Film watching with my little brother (a brilliant film coneseur...loves the oldies!), lazing in the pub with my friends and catching up on all the news and events! Shopping trips avec parents, BBQs in the garden and this evening a nice night with my Christian friends to organise or annual surfing trip to cornwall! Yey!
So, I am waffling now as is one of my many annoying habits, I will leave you but will surely keep you posted on my life here in wonderful Bath. OH! and the possibly varying states of CHAVness in the RC Gheto!
Be good! Love y'all
xxx Ffi xxx
I have therefore, been looking the last few days for a job to fill the Cresent free hours this summer and to save some money for the coming year. I am job hunting as i do not intend to return to the curse that is Nero(...I will keep you posted on how this goes, I forsee myself working there as an old age pensioner reguardless of all my attempts to free myself from its grip!, my boss seems determined to have me back!) and fancy a turn at something new!
As to my activities so far this holiday, they have comprised mainly of Black and White, Fred and Ginger Film watching with my little brother (a brilliant film coneseur...loves the oldies!), lazing in the pub with my friends and catching up on all the news and events! Shopping trips avec parents, BBQs in the garden and this evening a nice night with my Christian friends to organise or annual surfing trip to cornwall! Yey!
So, I am waffling now as is one of my many annoying habits, I will leave you but will surely keep you posted on my life here in wonderful Bath. OH! and the possibly varying states of CHAVness in the RC Gheto!
Be good! Love y'all
xxx Ffi xxx
Saturday, June 24, 2006
Home for a particularly long summer!
Ok the photos for some reason didnt get published for my last entry, eh well just log onto amies blog and u can see them anyways (www.amiedyre.blogspot.com - i really need to work out those link things!)
So, first year is over. (Boo Sob!) The long journey back to the west country went smoothly, or rather, as smoothly as it can with my mother in the car! Some of the dramas of the journey included my dearest ol'mum nearly choking to death on a paracetamol tablet, and then throwing half a bottle of water over herself and my dad in her fits of coughing! Very amusing to behold, especially when my dad was trying frantically not to get wet trousers from sitting on the puddle collecting on his seat by raising himself up whilst still attempting to drive! Very amusing parents I have!
Now home however, I have had the obligatory teary ten minuets crying in my kitchen for the loss of my Durham! I get this every time i come home and I never really know why. Its wierd cos i am so glad to be home with my family but at the smae time I have lost my Durham family for a while, and this makes me quite sad!
Anyway, I watched DrWho, had a lush BBQ in my garden in the glorious summer sunshine here in the south and am about to settle down with a film in my bed.
Tomorrow I will begin the mammoth task of unpaking my life into my very small and already full room here at home!
So untill later, (Roll on those summer days in the Royal Cresent!) i will say Adeui my friends!
xxx Ffi xxx
So, first year is over. (Boo Sob!) The long journey back to the west country went smoothly, or rather, as smoothly as it can with my mother in the car! Some of the dramas of the journey included my dearest ol'mum nearly choking to death on a paracetamol tablet, and then throwing half a bottle of water over herself and my dad in her fits of coughing! Very amusing to behold, especially when my dad was trying frantically not to get wet trousers from sitting on the puddle collecting on his seat by raising himself up whilst still attempting to drive! Very amusing parents I have!
Now home however, I have had the obligatory teary ten minuets crying in my kitchen for the loss of my Durham! I get this every time i come home and I never really know why. Its wierd cos i am so glad to be home with my family but at the smae time I have lost my Durham family for a while, and this makes me quite sad!
Anyway, I watched DrWho, had a lush BBQ in my garden in the glorious summer sunshine here in the south and am about to settle down with a film in my bed.
Tomorrow I will begin the mammoth task of unpaking my life into my very small and already full room here at home!
So untill later, (Roll on those summer days in the Royal Cresent!) i will say Adeui my friends!
xxx Ffi xxx
Friday, June 16, 2006
Midsummer Fun!
The Exams are over, the digging is half way through and life in Durham is as good as it gets with nothing to do other than enjoy the sunshine and just be with my friends.
Alot has been happening over the last 2 or three weeks; We had music on the river, which consisted of a picnic on the river pank with Pimms and sunshine, whilst the Durham Choral Society serenaded us from boats. The others went to CU houseparty and Kat went to prague. Last night we all went out for a fairwell do for Annika and a pre-birthday bash for some of the others, in Weatherspoons and then we went on to a Salsa nigt in one of the clubs in town. Alot of the rest of the time we have spent lazing in the garden as you may have seen in my last post. But Tuesday night this week was the highlight of the term with the Mary's Midsummer Ball taking place.
The theme of the ball was The Orient Express and dress code was Black Tie. Each reception room in college was turned into a new destination on the "trains journey". We had Venice, Istanbul, Paris among others. The things to do with the night included a Casino, with real Roulette tables and Black Jack dealers, A Jazz Pianist, a chocolate fountain (SO GOOD!), Carnival stall type activities on the SCR lawn as well as Crazy Golf, 2 live Bands and a Ceildh at 2am. There was also a Massuse in a chill out room! And a breakfast of Strawberrys and Champagne at 4.30am after the "Survivors Photo"! (which we made it too!!)
So after a pig out on Pizza (or chicken if you are me!) and wine we all got dolled up and then headed down to join the fun!
Enjoy some of the photos here but to see more take a look at Amie's Blog and she tells the story of the night better than me anyway!
Ciao for now,
xxx Ffi xxx
Alot has been happening over the last 2 or three weeks; We had music on the river, which consisted of a picnic on the river pank with Pimms and sunshine, whilst the Durham Choral Society serenaded us from boats. The others went to CU houseparty and Kat went to prague. Last night we all went out for a fairwell do for Annika and a pre-birthday bash for some of the others, in Weatherspoons and then we went on to a Salsa nigt in one of the clubs in town. Alot of the rest of the time we have spent lazing in the garden as you may have seen in my last post. But Tuesday night this week was the highlight of the term with the Mary's Midsummer Ball taking place.
The theme of the ball was The Orient Express and dress code was Black Tie. Each reception room in college was turned into a new destination on the "trains journey". We had Venice, Istanbul, Paris among others. The things to do with the night included a Casino, with real Roulette tables and Black Jack dealers, A Jazz Pianist, a chocolate fountain (SO GOOD!), Carnival stall type activities on the SCR lawn as well as Crazy Golf, 2 live Bands and a Ceildh at 2am. There was also a Massuse in a chill out room! And a breakfast of Strawberrys and Champagne at 4.30am after the "Survivors Photo"! (which we made it too!!)
So after a pig out on Pizza (or chicken if you are me!) and wine we all got dolled up and then headed down to join the fun!
Enjoy some of the photos here but to see more take a look at Amie's Blog and she tells the story of the night better than me anyway!
Ciao for now,
xxx Ffi xxx
Saturday, June 10, 2006
Sun, Coolbreezes, Coloured soil and Archaeology!!
Ok I think its probably about time I updated this blog with something more interseting and profound than what blonde I am or whether I am a good kisser or not! The problem with this is that my life really isnt that interesting at the moment!
You see, I have the joy of spending the last three weeks of term on an archaeological excavation! There are pros and cons to this of course! The pros mainly being that I am meeting loads of really cool new people from my course who I didnt really know before, secondly that I am getting a lovely tan (sorry to mention it AGAIN!!) and actually it is more intersting than sitting around in college being bored. Oh and I get 25% of my second year out of the way now! (yey!)
The Cons are slightly less meaningful but still understandable, I dont get alot of sleep having to be up at 6ish every morning, I have to stare at the colours of dirt all day and aim to clean soil up with various metal instruments! (do you know how hard it is to clean dirt?? In essence it doesnt like it, its dirt after all!) Oh and finally I have to eat lettice everyday for lunch cos college are to poo to make me anything else or even to give me a baked potato with it! Grrrgrrrgrrr!
So you see life is very boring however, I have my wonderful friends, my health (relatively speaking), sunshine, the privaledge of being at Durham Uni, my amazing Family supporting me all the way and the world is in the majority an amazing place to be. Living outside most of this week has made me appreciate these things so much....Don't ask why, something to do with the sunshine and the cool breeze I think! lol
Anyway, before I go off on a soppy nature rant resembling a Hardy Novel I am going to say ciao for now and go wash my hair!
Love you all a million
xxxxxx
You see, I have the joy of spending the last three weeks of term on an archaeological excavation! There are pros and cons to this of course! The pros mainly being that I am meeting loads of really cool new people from my course who I didnt really know before, secondly that I am getting a lovely tan (sorry to mention it AGAIN!!) and actually it is more intersting than sitting around in college being bored. Oh and I get 25% of my second year out of the way now! (yey!)
The Cons are slightly less meaningful but still understandable, I dont get alot of sleep having to be up at 6ish every morning, I have to stare at the colours of dirt all day and aim to clean soil up with various metal instruments! (do you know how hard it is to clean dirt?? In essence it doesnt like it, its dirt after all!) Oh and finally I have to eat lettice everyday for lunch cos college are to poo to make me anything else or even to give me a baked potato with it! Grrrgrrrgrrr!
So you see life is very boring however, I have my wonderful friends, my health (relatively speaking), sunshine, the privaledge of being at Durham Uni, my amazing Family supporting me all the way and the world is in the majority an amazing place to be. Living outside most of this week has made me appreciate these things so much....Don't ask why, something to do with the sunshine and the cool breeze I think! lol
Anyway, before I go off on a soppy nature rant resembling a Hardy Novel I am going to say ciao for now and go wash my hair!
Love you all a million
xxxxxx
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Girl at heart! not an oldie yet! YEY!
| You Are A Girl! |
 Are you ever serious? Well, you're seriously playful. And guys are attracted to your girlish spirit and all the fun that follows. Your girlish, temper, however... well, they could live without that. Not to worry though, you never stay upset for long. It's off to the next adventure. |
Monday, May 29, 2006
Hehe i thought this one was funny, and hopefully quite true!
| You Are Blonde Highlights |
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How Blonde Are You?
Sunday, May 28, 2006
Oh dear!
Well alot of the others have been doing these Blogspot personality tests and it seems that I have hidden depths! To see what the others got check out their sites!...Oh dear folks!
| You Are a Passionate Kisser |
 Your kissing style is unpredictable and free spirited You could kiss anyone at a drop of a hat It's all about where your passion leads you |
Thursday, May 25, 2006
Lalalalalalala! Exams are over!!
Creative title isn't it! I am so glad that finally all the stress and exhaustion of the last 4 weeks is over! The exams were actually over with in a week but it felt like so much longer with revision and everything! However, I think despite all panic I have passed them except for this last one which was always going to hopeless....Science, come on!! (I didnt even get GCSE science! not something to be proud of I know but IM STILL AT DURHAM!)
I intended to go home over this next weekend as everyone else still has exams untill the 31st at least so I wanted to take the opportunity of going to see my family and mates for a few days. However obviously the lord has other plans that involve Durham because there were no trains avalible under the price of £77!! Typical!
So instead we girlies from the Hill are heading to the Bailey tonight to go to Cuths bar (seemingly our favorite haut at the moe) and watch some big screen t.v and relax! Tomorrow I am meeting Sarah for a long awaited catch up and then the remaining 10days are a mystery untill I start my dig on the 5th! (not too excited but hey!)
So I must fly now and hopefully with more time on my hands you will be hearing from me shortly! (but don't hold your breath!) Here are some recent pics of the fun in Durham!
xxxFfixxx
Kat Dying my hair, I got bored!!...can u spot it in the pictures below??
Rachael, Annika, Kat and Burbage, watching Eurovision in Cuths; Ben looking bored in Cuths too, obviously the Eurovision magic isn't working on him!
Myself, Kat and Burbage all went to Klute after Eurovision for much needed down-letting of hair!....oh and Ben came too! :D
I intended to go home over this next weekend as everyone else still has exams untill the 31st at least so I wanted to take the opportunity of going to see my family and mates for a few days. However obviously the lord has other plans that involve Durham because there were no trains avalible under the price of £77!! Typical!
So instead we girlies from the Hill are heading to the Bailey tonight to go to Cuths bar (seemingly our favorite haut at the moe) and watch some big screen t.v and relax! Tomorrow I am meeting Sarah for a long awaited catch up and then the remaining 10days are a mystery untill I start my dig on the 5th! (not too excited but hey!)
So I must fly now and hopefully with more time on my hands you will be hearing from me shortly! (but don't hold your breath!) Here are some recent pics of the fun in Durham!
xxxFfixxx
Kat Dying my hair, I got bored!!...can u spot it in the pictures below??
Rachael, Annika, Kat and Burbage, watching Eurovision in Cuths; Ben looking bored in Cuths too, obviously the Eurovision magic isn't working on him!
Myself, Kat and Burbage all went to Klute after Eurovision for much needed down-letting of hair!....oh and Ben came too! :D
Saturday, May 20, 2006
It's been a while!
Ok so it has been rather a long time since I last posted, however my excuse is I feel fairly valid! It is as some if not all of you know the term in which our exams take place, and although they dont count towards my degree they are necessary to pass to get into the next year! Also I want to do well! So revision has been manic and sunshine has been frequent if a bit unpredictable so i have been spending alot of time doing revision in the sunshine! YEY! below are some pictures of said revision session (although it doesn't look like i'm doing much work in them....but I was...just not at that precise moment!) I had one exam on Thursday which went as i expected and I have had one today which i was very scared about but that actually went better than anticipated!
Anywho now I must get back to revision as I have an exam on Monday afternoon and then two more then I'm done for the year! WOOHOO!
Ciao xxxFfixxx
Anywho now I must get back to revision as I have an exam on Monday afternoon and then two more then I'm done for the year! WOOHOO!
Ciao xxxFfixxx
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
The Dreaded Day Dawns!!
So it has finally come despite all attempts to stop time and all my pleading with God to stop the sun as he did for Gidian (at least I think its Gidian) it seems that turning 20 is just one of those inevitable things that one just has to face in life! Also my case is not quite as strong as Gidians!!
However now I am here it doesnt feel too bad, not that i was expecting dramatic greying of the hair or anything...Its not that old after all, infact nothing dramatic has happened at all ( I can hear u all going "well Durrrrr!!") but you would imagine that with a date as seemingly significant as 20, something should happen! But not a sausage!!
Well tonight is a night on the tiles in Studio with my friends, 50p night so who could resist!! So I will post photos of all my lovelie people then...
sorry for the short entry but i have work to do and revision that needs starting,
Ciao for now xxxFfixxx
However now I am here it doesnt feel too bad, not that i was expecting dramatic greying of the hair or anything...Its not that old after all, infact nothing dramatic has happened at all ( I can hear u all going "well Durrrrr!!") but you would imagine that with a date as seemingly significant as 20, something should happen! But not a sausage!!
Well tonight is a night on the tiles in Studio with my friends, 50p night so who could resist!! So I will post photos of all my lovelie people then...
sorry for the short entry but i have work to do and revision that needs starting,
Ciao for now xxxFfixxx
Thursday, April 13, 2006
OH NO!!...
.....Only 12 days to go!!! You have got to be kidding me right?! 12 days left of being a teenager....Gaaaaaaaahhhh! No fair!
OK, so, 12days to cram as many mood swings in as possible, 12 days left in which i can use the phrase, "well I'm entitled to, I'm a teenager!". 12 days left of the freedom and sense of "youngness" one gets with teens (at least im guessing its related to being a teenager....we shall see!) And 12 days left of not sounding OLD!!! Also theoretically 12 days left of spots, but the world being the way it is that one little thing, the only one im actually looking forward to, will be the one that doesnt change the day i hit 20!
I am not a happy bunny! The only good thing is that I get 2 birthdays! woohoo...(note the sarcasm)...I get to turn 20 TWICE! No this is a good thing as I get to spend my actual birthday with my Lovely Uni mates, a new experiance but i also get a great day with all my family and mates at home here too! So hopefully, with quite a bit of wine involved, i can forget the actual reason everyone is making a fuss over me!
Hmmmm.....
OK, so, 12days to cram as many mood swings in as possible, 12 days left in which i can use the phrase, "well I'm entitled to, I'm a teenager!". 12 days left of the freedom and sense of "youngness" one gets with teens (at least im guessing its related to being a teenager....we shall see!) And 12 days left of not sounding OLD!!! Also theoretically 12 days left of spots, but the world being the way it is that one little thing, the only one im actually looking forward to, will be the one that doesnt change the day i hit 20!
I am not a happy bunny! The only good thing is that I get 2 birthdays! woohoo...(note the sarcasm)...I get to turn 20 TWICE! No this is a good thing as I get to spend my actual birthday with my Lovely Uni mates, a new experiance but i also get a great day with all my family and mates at home here too! So hopefully, with quite a bit of wine involved, i can forget the actual reason everyone is making a fuss over me!
Hmmmm.....
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
My hands feel like sandpaper....AND....they're all streaky!!
Ok, an odd title for this blog but let me explain.....
Working in the old caffe of Nero, one has to use considerable amounts of chemicals to make sure everything is spick and span and disinfected, however the effect on ones hands and lower arms is quite remarkable, as whilst using said chemicals one forgets that one should be wearing gloves to protect said hands and lower arms...however, me (being me) forget that vital piece of information every day! so consequently (and after much rambling), my point is, is that they (the hands and lower arms) are practically the same texture as Grade-4 sandpaper (oh the joys of D.T. GCSE for knowing such things as the grades in sandpaper)!!!
Understand the first half of the title now? "Yes Ffion!" I hear u cry, "but what about the second half....Streaky?Whats that all about?!" Well as those of u who know me well know (infact scrap the "well".....if uve known me for 2 days or more u'll know this!) I am a fairly vain person. Also as some might know i naturally have fairly brown skin but having not seen the light of real sunshine in around 2 yrs (not counting Thailand as it was just cloudy the whole time being rainy season, so tanning wasnt that successful!) my palour is suffering somewhat! So, to get on with my point (which i am labouring incredibly!) I decided, having seen the ads on T.V and being a sucker for a bargin and any new-fangled gimick, i decided to by some Garnier 'upside-down-spraying' fake-tanning stuff. This i have to add now is the first time in my litte life i have ever fake tanned, mainly cos i havent needed too but this time i succumed. I can hear ur groans even as i write this so i hasten to add that actually it turned out really well and I AM NOT ORANGE!!! Horrah!!
So whats all the "streaky" stuff about then miss george? well it turns out that whilst the fake tan is resistent to conventional soap and water and will (under normal circumstances) last up to two weeks, it does not cope well under the strain of industrial strength 'D10 Cleaner' and the other products used in Nero. My point being that not only are my hands now all dry and sore but also a very interesting hue of brown/white/red in varying streaks and patterns, designed by the corrosive cleaning fluid!
hmmmm!...So, that is my story for the day, hope u all enjoyed it....Untill next time my friends,
Tra......... X
P.s: Celebration bash for my birthday with my Bath mates is happening next friday so expect photos very soon of funness and random people that u durhamites wont know! oh well! they will still be interesting i hope! Oh and Nicloa is coming down to see me and lovely Bath that week too! hurrah!! tra x
Working in the old caffe of Nero, one has to use considerable amounts of chemicals to make sure everything is spick and span and disinfected, however the effect on ones hands and lower arms is quite remarkable, as whilst using said chemicals one forgets that one should be wearing gloves to protect said hands and lower arms...however, me (being me) forget that vital piece of information every day! so consequently (and after much rambling), my point is, is that they (the hands and lower arms) are practically the same texture as Grade-4 sandpaper (oh the joys of D.T. GCSE for knowing such things as the grades in sandpaper)!!!
Understand the first half of the title now? "Yes Ffion!" I hear u cry, "but what about the second half....Streaky?Whats that all about?!" Well as those of u who know me well know (infact scrap the "well".....if uve known me for 2 days or more u'll know this!) I am a fairly vain person. Also as some might know i naturally have fairly brown skin but having not seen the light of real sunshine in around 2 yrs (not counting Thailand as it was just cloudy the whole time being rainy season, so tanning wasnt that successful!) my palour is suffering somewhat! So, to get on with my point (which i am labouring incredibly!) I decided, having seen the ads on T.V and being a sucker for a bargin and any new-fangled gimick, i decided to by some Garnier 'upside-down-spraying' fake-tanning stuff. This i have to add now is the first time in my litte life i have ever fake tanned, mainly cos i havent needed too but this time i succumed. I can hear ur groans even as i write this so i hasten to add that actually it turned out really well and I AM NOT ORANGE!!! Horrah!!
So whats all the "streaky" stuff about then miss george? well it turns out that whilst the fake tan is resistent to conventional soap and water and will (under normal circumstances) last up to two weeks, it does not cope well under the strain of industrial strength 'D10 Cleaner' and the other products used in Nero. My point being that not only are my hands now all dry and sore but also a very interesting hue of brown/white/red in varying streaks and patterns, designed by the corrosive cleaning fluid!
hmmmm!...So, that is my story for the day, hope u all enjoyed it....Untill next time my friends,
Tra......... X
P.s: Celebration bash for my birthday with my Bath mates is happening next friday so expect photos very soon of funness and random people that u durhamites wont know! oh well! they will still be interesting i hope! Oh and Nicloa is coming down to see me and lovely Bath that week too! hurrah!! tra x
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Random thing I realised while at washing dishes....
Ok so while staring out of the top floor window off Caffe Nero today whilst attempting to wash up dishes, I was suddenly struck by how odd the effects of holidays from university really are. By this I mean one week away just felt like one week away, Uni still felt real and my uni mates still felt close (by close i mean 'physically' close), I was still imagining their responses to things i had done that day whilst cooking dinner etc. But after one week back and when life in Bath has returned so sweetly to the state it was in before i left for uni last october, (routines with friends and with work etc...) University, and Durham in general including all the amazing things that have happened whilst being there now seem like some super fantastic and i may add very realistic dream. I get this alot with life in general....not just with uni...For example... 1 month after returning from Thailand - the fact I had been there, to Thailand seemed like a rediculous concept! despite all photos and emails and letters i still, even now, find it hard to believe i actually did go there and that it wasnt all just a very good dream. Not saying i dont believe all u guys exist cos i know u do, but it doesnt seem "real" in the same way as the life i am now living does....Does this make any sense at all? Also does anyone else ever feel like this or is it just one of the many fantastical fantasies of Ffion?? I would appreciate feed back on this, i am quite perplexed? Any theories anyone?
Also thought u might like to know that i did actually do work today, though got told off for spending 10mins staring out the window whilst a particularly large queue waited for the freshly cleaned crockery that I was supposed to be doing! Honestly what's a girl to do??
Love y'all
xxx
Also thought u might like to know that i did actually do work today, though got told off for spending 10mins staring out the window whilst a particularly large queue waited for the freshly cleaned crockery that I was supposed to be doing! Honestly what's a girl to do??
Love y'all
xxx
Sunday, March 26, 2006
Appauling effort on my part!
Hey folks, I am sad to say that once again I have failed to keep up with my blog to the extent that you other lovelie Bloggers seem to be able to! My only excuse is to plead mitigating circumstances, i.e. work. As many of u will have gathered if u speak to me on msn or facebook, I have been fully exhausted by my hard labour for the slave driving company that is Caffe Nero - but dont ever tire of complaining about it!!
However, despite all exhaustion u will be pleased to learn that I managed to have a wonderful night out on saturday night (last night) as one of my friends had hired out one of the trendy bars in Bath for a party that had no real occasion other than having fun and seeing everyone again. It was such a good night, despite me falling asleep for half an hour on my friend Ben halfway through the night. It was great to catch up with everyone again and was just nice to spend some time with them like old times. I cant wait till the summer now as Bath is best in the summer months, just lazing in the Royal Cresent with ur mates and an acoustic guitar (provided someone knows how to play it of course....not much use having one otherwise)!
That was a very random paragraph but i have not really got much else of interest to inform u all of....unless u want a blow-by-blow account of my week at work....which i doubt!
So untill I have anything of more interest to write, goodbye....
xxxFfixxx
However, despite all exhaustion u will be pleased to learn that I managed to have a wonderful night out on saturday night (last night) as one of my friends had hired out one of the trendy bars in Bath for a party that had no real occasion other than having fun and seeing everyone again. It was such a good night, despite me falling asleep for half an hour on my friend Ben halfway through the night. It was great to catch up with everyone again and was just nice to spend some time with them like old times. I cant wait till the summer now as Bath is best in the summer months, just lazing in the Royal Cresent with ur mates and an acoustic guitar (provided someone knows how to play it of course....not much use having one otherwise)!
That was a very random paragraph but i have not really got much else of interest to inform u all of....unless u want a blow-by-blow account of my week at work....which i doubt!
So untill I have anything of more interest to write, goodbye....
xxxFfixxx
Sunday, March 19, 2006
Home, home on the range!
Ok! So one day at home so far and already I'm missing Durham and all you guys...very odd things keep making me miss it....the fact I have to leave my room to clean my teeth and actually go down stairs to make a cup of tea! other things I dont miss quite so much, like locking the door behind me even to go to the toilet and of course I dont miss the noise of passing drunken students singing "I Am The One And Only" and 3.00am!!
OK i wrote that first half yesterday evening and promptly fell asleep whilst typing! since then I have gone back to work in the old Caffe Nero (it is two f's...its italian!...not french!) I'm soooo knackard now its crazy! one shift and i wiped out what is a whole week of shifts gonna do to me!! oh well i just think of the money at the end of it all!!
I really have nothing else to say as my mind is just a blank....all i can think of to say is blblblblblblblblblblblblblblblblblblblblblblblbblbl....and even that took some effort! right well I really think I'm gonna have to go have a nap, oh and maybe a bubble bath!! Oh so nice!! I leave u with some pictures of the Back to Skool night we had at the DSU in the last week of term....
Ciao for now my lovelies...
Ffi xxx
OK i wrote that first half yesterday evening and promptly fell asleep whilst typing! since then I have gone back to work in the old Caffe Nero (it is two f's...its italian!...not french!) I'm soooo knackard now its crazy! one shift and i wiped out what is a whole week of shifts gonna do to me!! oh well i just think of the money at the end of it all!!
I really have nothing else to say as my mind is just a blank....all i can think of to say is blblblblblblblblblblblblblblblblblblblblblblblbblbl....and even that took some effort! right well I really think I'm gonna have to go have a nap, oh and maybe a bubble bath!! Oh so nice!! I leave u with some pictures of the Back to Skool night we had at the DSU in the last week of term....
Ciao for now my lovelies...
Ffi xxx
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Well I apologise about awful delay in my postings once again...because I know how avidly you all read them...yeah right! This week has been very busy getting all my assignments done before I venture home on Wednesday...tomorrow! 'Why am I going home so near the end of term' I hear you say?....'and missing one of the best formals of the year' i hear you say? Well most of you know why, my friend is in a play and I said I would be there...blablabla! So tomorrow at 2ish I am venturing out of the bubble that is Durham on my own for the first time in 2 months! how sad am I! (thats a rhetorical question by the way!) Isn't Uni supposed to make you more capable and independant or some such tripe? Well Durham definatly isn't, however it does feel like home now and I know that Bath is going to seem HUGE in comparison....which is odd cos Bath is tiny too!? wierd psychological thingy-ma-jig there! Ok i am rambling now, or wittering as my mother calls it, so I will cut this Blog short as I really have nothing of interest to say anyway and as I am seeing my family tomorrow I do not actually see the point in finding anything interesting to say!
So I add a picture just to keep things interesting and varied and then it is off to CU and Kat and Marks first time leading it (or Sarah and Lous last time....I cant remember!). how odd!
Photo of Helen, Amie, Kit-Kat and Self....
So tra then my chickens,
xxxFfixxx
So I add a picture just to keep things interesting and varied and then it is off to CU and Kat and Marks first time leading it (or Sarah and Lous last time....I cant remember!). how odd!
Photo of Helen, Amie, Kit-Kat and Self....So tra then my chickens,
xxxFfixxx
Saturday, February 25, 2006
A particularly cold fieldtrip and the Mexican Feast!
Well once again this week has been mad and consequently delayed my blog updates yet again! Apologies for the lack of post people!
Today has been the most eventful day of the week so far...not saying alot if I'm honest! I got up bright and early at 7.45am for my archaeology fieldtrip to the Breamish Valley. Had a shower got breakfast and left for the coach all smug thinking I was going to be as warm as toast in my thermals and two fleeces as well as a "waterproof". Anyway the day did not start well with a climb up a hill that was more of a cliff! Not exagerating here, it took an hour to climb and was practically vertical! On the top we found a bunch of rocks that were apparently once part of a house but I cannot imagine why anyone in their right minds would want to live in such an a)unreachable place and b)inhospitible place...the wind was howling and icey cold and it was lashing down with rain! It was here I discovered my loyal Royal High school coat had given up the goast and is no longer waterproof! At this point I was on the verge of tears as was practically everyone else (apart from the eternally cheerful practicals tutor!) and contemplating a change of degree, however, it stopped raining (for ten mins) and the next hour walk was all down hill and relativly interesting, so by the time it started raining again, Abi Mark and I were all alot happier and actually got to the point where the rain and wind became funny....hysterically funny infact! So we had a good day from then on...which I won't bore you with as it gets no better than a cup of tea and a buiscuit in a cafe at the end of the day!
I must make this blog short as I am in dire need of a hot bath and tonight is the College Feast and Caiylee (sorry Helen...have no idea how to spell that!). However, none of us are going to said feast as it costs £12 to include that! (£12 for mary's food....I don't think so!!) Instead, Amie is being the most wonderful Star (not a new thing for her) and cooking us all mexican food (except I have to avoid alot of spice so I'll be having slightly milder stuff I would imagine.) and we are going to have Sangria with it too....a new experiance for me! After which we will all head down for the caiylee (sorry again!...I was always told if you can't spell it at least be consistent!) which will be exhausing I am sure but massivly fun too!
So for now I must dash to my Bath and beautify!
Will right soon I promise....
Bye Ffi xxx
Today has been the most eventful day of the week so far...not saying alot if I'm honest! I got up bright and early at 7.45am for my archaeology fieldtrip to the Breamish Valley. Had a shower got breakfast and left for the coach all smug thinking I was going to be as warm as toast in my thermals and two fleeces as well as a "waterproof". Anyway the day did not start well with a climb up a hill that was more of a cliff! Not exagerating here, it took an hour to climb and was practically vertical! On the top we found a bunch of rocks that were apparently once part of a house but I cannot imagine why anyone in their right minds would want to live in such an a)unreachable place and b)inhospitible place...the wind was howling and icey cold and it was lashing down with rain! It was here I discovered my loyal Royal High school coat had given up the goast and is no longer waterproof! At this point I was on the verge of tears as was practically everyone else (apart from the eternally cheerful practicals tutor!) and contemplating a change of degree, however, it stopped raining (for ten mins) and the next hour walk was all down hill and relativly interesting, so by the time it started raining again, Abi Mark and I were all alot happier and actually got to the point where the rain and wind became funny....hysterically funny infact! So we had a good day from then on...which I won't bore you with as it gets no better than a cup of tea and a buiscuit in a cafe at the end of the day!
I must make this blog short as I am in dire need of a hot bath and tonight is the College Feast and Caiylee (sorry Helen...have no idea how to spell that!). However, none of us are going to said feast as it costs £12 to include that! (£12 for mary's food....I don't think so!!) Instead, Amie is being the most wonderful Star (not a new thing for her) and cooking us all mexican food (except I have to avoid alot of spice so I'll be having slightly milder stuff I would imagine.) and we are going to have Sangria with it too....a new experiance for me! After which we will all head down for the caiylee (sorry again!...I was always told if you can't spell it at least be consistent!) which will be exhausing I am sure but massivly fun too!
So for now I must dash to my Bath and beautify!
Will right soon I promise....
Bye Ffi xxx
Saturday, February 18, 2006
Mid-term!
So, I have finally reached the middle of my second term at Durham University! It seems wierd as it feels like hardly any time at all since I was saying goodbye to my dad at the airport and sarah and I were flying up to start this term. I can see now that these 3 years are really going to fly by. The fact that we already have our house sorted for next year is scary enough but the fact that I'm now discussing what to do over the 3weeks at the end of term (this year) when we can't go home but have no lectures or exams or anything, is also scaring me. The fact I have exams to do before that time, has conveniently been left out by my brain!
These passed few weeks have been a bit random and uneventful, hense the gap between blog entries. Having said that I realise that an awful lots has actually happened since I last wrote my blog. Amie has turned 21, so has Sarah (not Sarah Scott), lots of girliness on Valentines evening with our singles night (pink cava and chocolate!), I have handed in another 2 essays in one week (a record for me I think!) and...I have once again run out of money! It's getting to be a kind of challenge for me, 'how long can I live off £10.00??' However after many stressful encounters with banks (Lloyds and Natwest) I have come to realise that it is not possible for me to get an overdraft extension due to my lack of income(....I'm a student, I have no income!!!) and therefore I will live a hermit like existence for the remaining 4weeks of term! I'm certain by that time I will have broken any standing world records for how long a £10.00 note can last!
It is of course my own fault, for being an absolute cretin when it comes to money...however after examining my statement there are I realise a few anomolies on said statement! something to do with an overdraft fee (of £30) when I haven't been over drawn on that account at all....this year! I can't be it won't let me...."I don't have an income!!" Anyway no overdrawn-ness was shown on the statement so I'm going to have to ask them about that!
Otherwise, all is happy and wonderful in Durham in the college on the Hill! It really feels like home (despite the cold) and I have the most wonderful friends I've ever had, despite the fact half of them have deserted me this weekend in favour of home...traitors, you know who you are! leaving me to do the dreaded thing....work on a weekend! (oh the horror!)
Anyway, I must now go to the library and start on said horror! So, untill later Tra xxxFfixxx
Photos =
Girlie Sleep over; Deserts and wine for Amie's 21st; the Ladies in Mary's Bar
Bye x
These passed few weeks have been a bit random and uneventful, hense the gap between blog entries. Having said that I realise that an awful lots has actually happened since I last wrote my blog. Amie has turned 21, so has Sarah (not Sarah Scott), lots of girliness on Valentines evening with our singles night (pink cava and chocolate!), I have handed in another 2 essays in one week (a record for me I think!) and...I have once again run out of money! It's getting to be a kind of challenge for me, 'how long can I live off £10.00??' However after many stressful encounters with banks (Lloyds and Natwest) I have come to realise that it is not possible for me to get an overdraft extension due to my lack of income(....I'm a student, I have no income!!!) and therefore I will live a hermit like existence for the remaining 4weeks of term! I'm certain by that time I will have broken any standing world records for how long a £10.00 note can last!
It is of course my own fault, for being an absolute cretin when it comes to money...however after examining my statement there are I realise a few anomolies on said statement! something to do with an overdraft fee (of £30) when I haven't been over drawn on that account at all....this year! I can't be it won't let me...."I don't have an income!!" Anyway no overdrawn-ness was shown on the statement so I'm going to have to ask them about that!
Otherwise, all is happy and wonderful in Durham in the college on the Hill! It really feels like home (despite the cold) and I have the most wonderful friends I've ever had, despite the fact half of them have deserted me this weekend in favour of home...traitors, you know who you are! leaving me to do the dreaded thing....work on a weekend! (oh the horror!)
Anyway, I must now go to the library and start on said horror! So, untill later Tra xxxFfixxx
Photos =
Girlie Sleep over; Deserts and wine for Amie's 21st; the Ladies in Mary's Bar
Bye x
Thursday, February 09, 2006
Hollywood, Fondu and another strange practical!
So, last week ended with my friend John's Hollywood themed 20th birthday on the Sat night. I went as a star....no literally as a star *!!! I made a lovely silver star-sandwich-board-type-creation out of cardboard and tin foil. I was very proud of myself but of course i wore a nice top and skirt as well (it would have been nicer if my mother had sent the top i asked her to, however...) It was a very fun evening despite feeling slightly ill with a cold and not really knowing very many people. Those things were both sorted very quickly; the first with wine and the second by actually talking to people, I got to know some lovely people (who i must add have all been added to the facebook!)
Monday night we had our CU 'impact' group social in response to the RESCUE mission week that the DICCU are holding. We had a Fondu night round at Laura's house (laura=my friend in second year, also an impact group leader) which was great fun and to which 3 non-christians came....which was kinda the point of the whole evening. They got to ask questions and chat about what christianity is all about without feeling pressured. It was a fun and interesting evening, involving ALOT of chocolate but thankfully alot of fruit too! (makes me feel better about the amount of chocolate consumed!) 
Tuesday; practicals day! As you may remember from my last blog (if you have been a diligent reader) last weeks practical involved a seemingly pointless walk up Maiden Castle hill for 3hrs.
Well you will be pleased to know that the Archaeology department at Durham University has managed to go one step further in its 'pointless practicals' campaign. This week we spent 3 hours examining the tarmac in the Science site car park. I'm not kidding you, 3hrs spent looking at tarmac - and I thought they couldn't get any worse! Apparently it has something to do with stratigraphy and learning dating techniques?!? The idea was basically to assess which layer came first and which after that...'easy' you say?...not so, you should see the Science car park!
So another strange and eventful week in the fabulous world of Ffion, stay tuned for the next installment coming to a computer near you shortly!
xxxFfixxx
p.s:photos = Me and John. Me, sarah and Mark. Self and Will
Monday night we had our CU 'impact' group social in response to the RESCUE mission week that the DICCU are holding. We had a Fondu night round at Laura's house (laura=my friend in second year, also an impact group leader) which was great fun and to which 3 non-christians came....which was kinda the point of the whole evening. They got to ask questions and chat about what christianity is all about without feeling pressured. It was a fun and interesting evening, involving ALOT of chocolate but thankfully alot of fruit too! (makes me feel better about the amount of chocolate consumed!) 
Tuesday; practicals day! As you may remember from my last blog (if you have been a diligent reader) last weeks practical involved a seemingly pointless walk up Maiden Castle hill for 3hrs.
Well you will be pleased to know that the Archaeology department at Durham University has managed to go one step further in its 'pointless practicals' campaign. This week we spent 3 hours examining the tarmac in the Science site car park. I'm not kidding you, 3hrs spent looking at tarmac - and I thought they couldn't get any worse! Apparently it has something to do with stratigraphy and learning dating techniques?!? The idea was basically to assess which layer came first and which after that...'easy' you say?...not so, you should see the Science car park!
So another strange and eventful week in the fabulous world of Ffion, stay tuned for the next installment coming to a computer near you shortly!
xxxFfixxx
p.s:photos = Me and John. Me, sarah and Mark. Self and Will
Monday, February 06, 2006
Yet one more excuse to spend time on the computer!
Well, it has finally happened after all that time spent saying how pointless the new uni fad "facebook" is I have actually joined it! Now, in my defence it was purely out of interest that I logged on, however, as I had been warned by many friends it is addictive and I spent the rest of that evening adding photos and searching for friends! For those of you who do not know what facebook actually is I shall enlighten u! The concept is similar to a blog (this site) in that you can personalise it with photos and comments but it is broader than that because you can access other peoples books and photos and leave comment and "tag" or send them photos that you may have of that person. It is only avalible to people at Uni (sorry Rhys!) and is only accessible to those you chose it to be open to. The reason I am loving it is because after only 10mins I had found 3 friends from my old school and had caught up with them and could see photos and comments by them on their book. It was so good! So that, basically, is facebook!
On another note, the masquerade formal was so much fun and all looked very beautiful and mysterious in their masks. Below are a selection of photos from said night, which included a meal (typical Mary's style food!) a walk to VanMildert bar(in ball-gowns...very embarrasing but fun!) for 15mins whilst dining hall was transformed into a dance hall. Then we all trouped back and had a good old shin-dig to the jazz band that were hired to play (and were very good!).
So here we all are....
Tra then xxxFfixxx
On another note, the masquerade formal was so much fun and all looked very beautiful and mysterious in their masks. Below are a selection of photos from said night, which included a meal (typical Mary's style food!) a walk to VanMildert bar(in ball-gowns...very embarrasing but fun!) for 15mins whilst dining hall was transformed into a dance hall. Then we all trouped back and had a good old shin-dig to the jazz band that were hired to play (and were very good!).
So here we all are....
Tra then xxxFfixxx
Thursday, February 02, 2006
Money money money, it's so funny in a poor students world!
Well tonight is the Venician Carnival masked formal and after lectures this morning I went to go buy a bottle of wine for all of us to have with the meal. Went to the cash point as you do, thinking i had a respectable amount of money there to last the rest of term and had the shock of my life to realise I infact only had £1.98! A serious shock to the system as I have been so good this term with money and only bought seroius essentials like a book for my course (bought on Amazon for 3/4 of the price) and shampoo (from the cheap shop in Milburngate centre!) and the occational outing like bowling £4.50 and one night out in the DSU club for £4 (entry - very expensive compared with Studio which is 50p entrance!) So there was no reason for there to be no money! I still don't know and am going to the bank tomorrow to try andfigure out where it went!
However, i now have to go to a tutorial but i just wanted a rant! I will write a happier blog tomorrow telling all about the Formal/Ball hopfully with photos!
Tra xxxFfixxx
However, i now have to go to a tutorial but i just wanted a rant! I will write a happier blog tomorrow telling all about the Formal/Ball hopfully with photos!
Tra xxxFfixxx
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Van Mildert, pointless practicals & swimming...
I was getting bored of the sight of those photos on this page so I have decided to write a new entry to refresh this page. Except I don't really know what to say....I have finally finished the essay I have been slaving over for the past week and have handed it in. I'm not sure it is as good as the last essay I wrote but this is for a module I don't enjoy or understand that much so, all things considered I was quite pleased. On a more social note Kat, Nicola and myself went to a live gig last night of a band called 'The Guests' in Van Mildert college (just up the road). We decided to go because one of Kat's friends is the drummer and she hadn't seen him for years so wanted to catch up....except she took about 2 hours to pluck up the courage to even go say hello! (To be fair though, I probably wouldn't have been able to either after that much time!) It was a fun night as we spent along time in the Mildert bar just chatting to Kat's boyfriend (Tim - who goes to VanMildert) and his friend Ollie who is also from Mildert and a really great guy. The band only played for a half hour but they were really good and I got a free CD of their songs after.
Today we had a VERY pointless practical trip (for my course) which involved a 2 and 1/2 hour walk up and then around Maiden Castle hill (for those not familiar with Durham...its very steep and very small!...not worth two hours) so that we could see for ourselves what we had been told in the hour lecture previous to the walk - that there actually isn't (and never has been) a castle on Maiden Castle hill despite all local myth to the contrary! Now, before you think me lazy - it wasn't the walk that I objected to or even the early hour but rather the sheer pointlessness of the 3hours and the fact that all this pointlessness had to be conducted in freezing conditions! So, today hasn't been wonderful considering I was up late lastnight/early this morning (3.30am) trying to find a printer in college that worked! I have however been swimming again today with Kat, which has refreshed me and made me feel good about myself because I'm not doing enough excersise recently! Oops!
Can't believe it's Wednesday tomorrow already! Time flys! Write more soon. Love u all!
xxxFfixxx
Today we had a VERY pointless practical trip (for my course) which involved a 2 and 1/2 hour walk up and then around Maiden Castle hill (for those not familiar with Durham...its very steep and very small!...not worth two hours) so that we could see for ourselves what we had been told in the hour lecture previous to the walk - that there actually isn't (and never has been) a castle on Maiden Castle hill despite all local myth to the contrary! Now, before you think me lazy - it wasn't the walk that I objected to or even the early hour but rather the sheer pointlessness of the 3hours and the fact that all this pointlessness had to be conducted in freezing conditions! So, today hasn't been wonderful considering I was up late lastnight/early this morning (3.30am) trying to find a printer in college that worked! I have however been swimming again today with Kat, which has refreshed me and made me feel good about myself because I'm not doing enough excersise recently! Oops!
Can't believe it's Wednesday tomorrow already! Time flys! Write more soon. Love u all!
xxxFfixxx
Friday, January 27, 2006
Houses, Houses, Houses!!!
Here are the pictures of our house for next year! I wanted to get one from the outside (...looking in) but i wasn't in charge of the photo taking! There is however one here of the kitchen (or half of it at least), the bathroom (minus the shower cubicle), Living room and one of the 3 large bedrooms (you can only see a corner of the room in it though!). Its pretty bare at the moe as it seems to have 5 lads living in it, however next year we wll make it all lovely and homely! So enjoy the viewing of "Greencroft" the George, Coad, Bates, Yarbourgh, Tyrer residence for y
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Thursday, January 26, 2006
My room at University!
My Lovely Room at uni, thought you might all like to see where i live and work!...aint it tidy...mainly because I'd just cleaned it! It feels very much like home now! And I have a lovely view over the cloisters and Court-yard! xxxFfixxx
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