An Unplanned Blog-Post...

I dont really have anything specific to talk about in this post but I thought it was about time i updated so we shall see where my mind takes me....brace yourselves!

This week has been a mixture of two worlds, the world of work and the world of home and my family.
I have, after much deliberation, gone back to work for Caffe Nero, but in my defence, only for 2 weeks as I thought it better to work before my 3 week holiday and earn a bit more cash than to waste two weeks just lazing around doing nothing!
The days I work are so long and manic that by the time I get home Ive just got the energy to crawl in to bed and die before I get up the next morning. However this week has been different cos I have been working every other day in the Cafe meaning I get one mad day on, one day off, one mad day on, one day off (etc.etc). On my days off I am spening alot of time with my mum and dad, which is really nice as in the past my dad has worked away alot so it was nice to be with both of them at the same time and without the stress of work.
Earlier this week my aunt and Uncle(on my dads side) came down and we spent the day with them just pottering in the garden (something I love!) and chatting. It was so nice to see them and to hear the great stories about my little cousins antics back home in wales, as we dont get to see them that often and they are all growing up so fast!

I realised from this week spent so close to my family (or rather i realised it again) that family is such a special thing. They are the only people in the world who you are connected to by your blood/genetics/traits what ever you wanna call it. They are the same as you. Friends are amazing, I couldn't be without any of them, but at the same time regardless of the closeness or length you have known them you dont have that connection with them as you do with your brothers (or sisters) mum, dad, aunt, uncle or grandparents. Family has the same origins as you. We come from the same place (by this i dont mean location or nationality!). We are essentially the same.
This was highlighted to me when my aunt was telling me stories of my litte cousin Ffion (same name - same character), my aunt said that she finds it quite scary how similar we are in our personalities and things we do and say - its like seeing me grow up all over again apparently.
Kats post about her day with her brothers highlighted the differences between siblings (one wanted one thing and another something totally different) but it also showed how close a bond the three of them have. Love for family is amazing and yet its really inexplicable at the same time! Sometimes you could just throttle them for their annoying habits, but at the same time to try and imgine ur life without them is impossible.

For those of you who don't know already my uncle (on my mums side)is dying, he is in intensive care in hospital at the moment and isnt expected to live many weeks more. This is very difficult especailly for my mum as he is still fairly young, not a Christian and yet has always been the one person in her family she has been closest to. I dont really know how I feel about this yet, its strange, but it just reminded me starkly once again (it happens alot to me....I'm not constantly thinking of morbid things by the way!) how important family is, and how grateful I am that I have such a wonderful one!
And here are some of them...These are my cousins,the eldest is Erin, the next is Ffion (yey!) and then its little Samuel...



Wow! - for an unplanned blog it seems I've been quite coherant....it seems there is alot going on in my head I didn't even know about! :D
Love to the masses
xxx Ffi xxx